If you asked me to describe the last few weeks, I would say, “I’ve been stuck in a swamp of my own making, full of toxic sludge keeping me stuck”.
Today.... today was a day. After only 4 hours of sleep the night before, I arrive at the airport for 5:15am to get through security, pick up my Starbucks coffee and banana bread. I hear the tremor in the cashiers voice as she she tells me my bill, barely above the octave of a whisper.… Continue reading The Universe is always supporting you.
For a long time I have been on a journey to discovering myself, unlearning all the things society taught me under the guise that "you have to do it this way". Whether you are a man or a woman, we are told to act a specific way, complete certain things, blah blah, fucking - horseshit,… Continue reading It Chose You.
"The strength among women when we come together is powerful. When we stop fighting each other and start working together, the frequency which we operate at is potent. The amount of change we can create, the amount of healing we can do - is limitless".
Releasing all of these realizations hurt just as deeply as holding on to the denial did. But releasing it meant the pain would be temporary instead of a life sentence.
"Aside from a long list of answers that weren’t actually my own, there was one I avoided hearing and accepting."
Everything stacks up and feels too hard to accomplish. Too difficult a task to tackle. You feel like you are trying to climb a mountain and every step you take causes you to slide down farther and farther away from the top. If only you could just get a grip.
If you can't, don't, or won't stick to your goals, plans and visions, you won't succeed and you can't expect anyone else to commit to your ideas either.
His death sent me into a wicked spiral of guilt and self-loathing. Resentment for my career grew as my heart ached over missed opportunities. Never in my life have I wanted to turn back the clock so badly.